School Placement

I am nearly finished my observations now in my school. I have second class again this year. I am in a DEIS band 1 school. I have 27 girls in my class. I have never laughed in a classroom quite as much. I will find it so hard to leave this school. The girls are all great and the things they say are so funny. 
The girls were very excited that I was going to be teaching them. These girls wouldn't have any luxuries, they're from a poor part of Dublin, the fact that a student teacher picked their class to teach in was thrilling to them. I get cards from these girls telling me that they love me, and pictures of me and them with flowers and fireworks and hearts telling me that they love me. When the class are doing a task, I walk around and offer help to those who are struggling. When I do help, the girls light up and are so grateful. The hugs are endless. 
Placement takes up so much time and is a lot of work but when you see a child light up and give you a hug because you've sat with them and helped them write the letter 'G' over and over, it's makes it all worthwhile !

The Joys of Pe

Now that I am back in college , I have realised how much fun it is ! Because that I had failed , I had just assumed that I would have no fun ! I was wrong ! Last week in pe , I laughed so hard I almost cried !
Have you ever heard of synchronised swimming ? I will post a clip up here later. of it. It was the most fun I've ever had. The whole lesson was based around creative dance. The first thing we did was a Christmas themed "make up your own dance". My group ended up incorporating Gangam style into our dance as 'riding the reindeer' ! Mortifying but such fun !
The synchronised swimming was the most fun by a mile ! We tried to do the frog but failed ! We ended up with the Mexican wave after 20 of a prep session.
I was telling my friend about it later on and he didn't believe me ! I forgot to say , there was no swimming pool ! It was the most heart breaking thing ever ! I showed my friend the video I will post up and we both cried with laughter !
I missed this ! I may not be with my real friends but some of these guys aren't so bad. I'm having fun so why let anything else get me down :)

Rock bottom ?

So I got my results today from the repeat repeat exams. I found out that I failed. I had already said that it would break me if I failed and it has. My eyes are puffy since 10.30 this morning from crying. It makes me wonder if I'm cut out for teaching at all. Does it matter how many times I repeat these exams, am I still going to fail? Will I ever make it into my senior freshman year ? Or will I be stuck as a junior freshman for the rest of my days ? 

How do you deal with losing the one passion you've ever had? There isn't anything else in the world that I would want and yet here I am , holding back the tears , wondering what I'm going to do for the next couple months. I have myself convinced that this is a sign that I'm not cut out for teaching......

To make things worse , the people who passed all of their exams the first time around are the ones who failed teaching practice and the ones who didn't go to most of their lectures. It's hurtful to think that I went to all of my lectures last year and got 2 distinction on my placement and I still fail. 

I don't think life gets worse.....this is rock bottom :(

Let the Fun Begin.....Again !!!

So we're now 5 weeks back into college and once more I am having a blast. It's incredible to think that the summer has passed and we are now in 2nd year, we are senior freshmen! We didn't really do much today in college, we just talked about fairy tales. We had to hand up an assignment based on the ears and anxieties associated with fairy tales. It was such an interesting assignment and I think the only one I've enjoyed doing so far. Although, it totally RUINED fairy tales for me :( 
After that, we just drank loads of coffee and then we had the chats ! All in all it was a great day in college! 
For those of you who don't know, I've had a pretty rough start to college this year. I had to do some repeat exams. I was back at college for 2 weeks and loving it, getting to see my friends again and getting back my independence. I was devastated when I found out that I failed exams. I cried so much! I decided to look for a job and work in the city for the year. I had been out of college for three weeks when I found out that the college were willing to do a "special" sitting of the exams for us. I had never been so happy. I went back to college and realised how much I missed the day to day life of being a college student. 
I sat my exam and am waiting for the results. Hopefully they are better than before cause I am loving life in college at the minute and I am having so much fun :D 

No New Reports

As the journey continues, there is nothing new to report. My two week break is nearly over. i have already started to plan what I will do when I return to Dublin. These two weeks were definitely needed. Today I slept until half twelve. I went to bed just after eleven. Not a bad nights sleep I would say ! I am starting to get agitated by being at home though. I sold my car and I haven't replaced it yet. I can't go anywhere or do anything. All of my friends are in Dublin or at the Gaeltacht so I am quite lonely. 
From Monday onwards I will have daily updates of what I did each day. I'm hoping that the innocence will continue!!

My Journey to Teaching

I've decided to slightly alter the point behind my posts. I'm going to begin keeping track of the 4year journey to becomming a teacher.
I have posted about bits and bobs before, including daily routines re college , etc.
I have finished my three weeks of tp. The most enjoyable three weeks of the course so far. I owned a classroom. I was in charge of children. I decided what they learned , how i taught and what homework they got. We had two inspections during the three weeks. I am not one to blow my own trumpet but i did very well on both. The first inspection i though went well anyway. I got an honours in it which was fab. I the second one , being perfectly honest , went okay i thought. Turns out he thought it was better. There were tears when i had to leave !!
Keep posted for more on my journey :)

Valentine's Day :*

Okay yet another bright and bubbly day in college. We started off the day with religion in which i read One Day for most of....he literally nade us watch as he tickled Elmo ! Okay i can't really complain about that !
We had a three jour break where i got to thinking about being alone on Valentines Day ! I'm texting a guy for quite a while now and he has asked me put on a date which has never happened !
If you read all about me you already know  that i am studying teaching. There are plenty of good looking guys in my college (i am sitting beside  one as i blog ) and i coyld chance my arm with any of them....the joys of being single !
I am blogging from an event called Take Me Out in which girls turn off their lights for boys who aren't they're type and keep them on for the guys who are....it's all in aid of  cancer , my good deed for the day !!