Rock bottom ?

So I got my results today from the repeat repeat exams. I found out that I failed. I had already said that it would break me if I failed and it has. My eyes are puffy since 10.30 this morning from crying. It makes me wonder if I'm cut out for teaching at all. Does it matter how many times I repeat these exams, am I still going to fail? Will I ever make it into my senior freshman year ? Or will I be stuck as a junior freshman for the rest of my days ? 

How do you deal with losing the one passion you've ever had? There isn't anything else in the world that I would want and yet here I am , holding back the tears , wondering what I'm going to do for the next couple months. I have myself convinced that this is a sign that I'm not cut out for teaching......

To make things worse , the people who passed all of their exams the first time around are the ones who failed teaching practice and the ones who didn't go to most of their lectures. It's hurtful to think that I went to all of my lectures last year and got 2 distinction on my placement and I still fail. 

I don't think life gets worse.....this is rock bottom :(

Let the Fun Begin.....Again !!!

So we're now 5 weeks back into college and once more I am having a blast. It's incredible to think that the summer has passed and we are now in 2nd year, we are senior freshmen! We didn't really do much today in college, we just talked about fairy tales. We had to hand up an assignment based on the ears and anxieties associated with fairy tales. It was such an interesting assignment and I think the only one I've enjoyed doing so far. Although, it totally RUINED fairy tales for me :( 
After that, we just drank loads of coffee and then we had the chats ! All in all it was a great day in college! 
For those of you who don't know, I've had a pretty rough start to college this year. I had to do some repeat exams. I was back at college for 2 weeks and loving it, getting to see my friends again and getting back my independence. I was devastated when I found out that I failed exams. I cried so much! I decided to look for a job and work in the city for the year. I had been out of college for three weeks when I found out that the college were willing to do a "special" sitting of the exams for us. I had never been so happy. I went back to college and realised how much I missed the day to day life of being a college student. 
I sat my exam and am waiting for the results. Hopefully they are better than before cause I am loving life in college at the minute and I am having so much fun :D